normality

Back from insanely amazing hellfest. Work. Getting baked and recovering,my be and me are officially involved. Only trouble is the divine comfyness of the duvee and silk duvet..crisp white cotton sheet and almost bouncy pillows...ive forgotton what i was talkimg about. Basically lying on the bed.will end up with me, tom most times, falling into a deep sleep. Like this morning when groggly waking up to the realisation that it was an hour and a half later than my wake up time :D

Beds calling me ciao for now
xxx

April and May showers..

there's a reason brits talk about the weather so much, it is so erratic. hail, sunshine and drizzly rain with strong winds, all in one day. that seems to be every day at the moment actually.
ignoring the weather, have booked tickets for Devildriver at The Brook on the 11th of June!! the walls and ceilings in that place will melt away, i dont know quite how the building/pub will hold up with such an awesome mean band.
prepping for hellfest now is only a couple of weeks away! buying weekly until then: a crate of cider and beer, plus a tub of peaches and make up wipes pack.
and vodka. sewing more atm, i have a paisley dress that i can upcycle by giving it angel sleeves, need to buy another band tee plus take my log tee, dye a pair of short and stuf the up, tonnes of pairs of socks and dm's and i'm ready. oh and suncream of course. all the festival essentials, will make check list but try not to pack too much..
hope to find a job soon care work but residential so will crack on with that.
but for the mean time, swimming (still havent been..)find a new flat,sort out the flat we are in..get under that bed cleared fucking hell thats a day job. its time to move on in all respects i think. hope to dye my hair blonde and possibly hava brigete bardot look going on with fringe like this cut in.

i hope we do get some hot weather soon think it would make everybody a bit happier and would make missioning around for me easier, i hate walkiing round soton when its raining looks like the shithole it is more exagerated eurgh. but in a late afternoon sun its actually quite beautiful to walk through the parks in town or through the common. i wana little but spacious flat near the common with a kitchen window and fireplaces. i have my eye on one..
cheers to making stuff happen. im guna drink till the wee hours tonight and dance my shoes down to dust
xxx

hellfest baby

have finally paid off tickets for travelling and camping at hellfest in clisson on the 15th of June :D
including, ozzy and friends (zak wilde mmmm!), lamb of god (ohhh myy gooodddd so excited), devildriver (oh yes), lynyrd skynyrd (eeek!) and a shit load of other amazing bands.
am guna get a tattoo most definately at the end of the festy so it will heal on way back home and tee shirts..
so starting to save again for booze, money for festy tonnes of make up wipes and tins of peaches :)

am thinking of making things in spare time, and selling them for very little. also looking to move out, have a flat viewing friday this week.
bring on the summer.

 i want stars and anchors and polka dots in the gaps of my sleeve, so pretty!

 saira hunjan

 new york flat, vogue

 barry M

 pink!

need a cute summer dress, practical but pretty for hellfest

peace and cookies

xxx

funny age, 22

i am just getting over my sunburn. in march!!

i think ive taken full of advantage of sunning time, via my garden, the parks, or-at best-the common. i guess its because we get so little incredibly warm sunshine in our lives that we feel the need to be in it, skirt pulled up and mp3 player out. i also have a feeling this is our summer so i'm catching all the rays possible.

have had interview..was a bust, only nights shifts so fuck that. last bit to pay off for hellfest end of this month so thats done and dusted besides the enormous pile of money im guna need for booze and weed. theres lots of flipflopwearing and brirthdays, cocktails at turtle bay yummmmy and some tigi bedhead shampoo and conditioner-also delicious. it comes out like liquid turqoise silver and smells like hawaii

for the next couple of months this is the agenda:

swimming (shave sides of head)
get a new job (cv library, care assistant jobs in residential homes)
look for flat in soton
trip to bristol
go over finger bow?
make bracelets
scrapbooking
hair bleach blonde


am drying a wash each day outdoors so the airer isnt in the flat. bring on the summer if there is one, i actually quite like southampton in the summer. bbqs are a must me and tom need to get on that.
easter eggs soon :D may have tp indulge in a lil lindt bunny...
x

procrastinate

hello world thought it was about time i wrote a post. even though nobody reads it..but thats a good thing.

havent made any progress in life generally although am having my feet done end of this month and also a WI meeting around that time too. i definately need constant help and advice and guidance on anything to do with courses and craft things. and i dont mean look it up on google as in somebody sitting with me and going through it. im going to job hunt more, every time i do it just depresses me there is nothing for young people and if there is 200 people are going for it! most with alot more experience and knowledge than you. hopefully it picks up but if not the best way always seems word of mouth, there might be a job for me in winchester fingers crossed on that one.

this month im skint so sewing, swimming (£5) but no sushi!

so with my man by my side next week i will find out about crafty and once the pink and blue colour on the shaved sides of my head wears out/is shaved again/little e does my hair blonde again somewhen soon i am going swimming! i have this beautiful navy polka dot halterneck costume, although may need to buy swimming shorts/skirt possibly from new look so i can pay off next month tehe! the joys of a store card

me and lamb

oh hollywood

candyfloss

hellfest baby fuck yeah!!!

fair oak

for now, i settle for tea and chocolate. which reminds me, i need to purchase a big cadbury bar
ttfn
x

hmmm..

strange age to find yourself at 22. it's not quite 25 where in eyes of a law you're an adult, but has passed the teenager years and waved goodbye to them. like being in limbo really. i'm sure it's the same when you get to 28 and 36 and so on but being this age almost makes it impossible to think that far ahead.
i don't know what i want to do in life, where, when or how. not to say that anybody does know their future but most have a specific idea or at least an inkling of a desired career, lifestyle generally who and where they want to be. right now i wish i knew. when i was younger i never looked at a doctor and thought wow, saving lives, i want to be a doctor. or watched a popstar on the tele and thought wow, performing to adoring crowds, i want to be a singer. i wonder if that was through lack of ambition or just how it was. maybe there is an ideal job out there for me, but at the moment with the country in  the shitter what are the chances of me getting it? it used to be one job attracting 20, now 200 will put their c.v in for it. why would the company in question choose me with a couple of a-levels versus a uni graduate? i don't mean to sound negatiove it's just that'd how it is.
to get my life sorted, i want new friends or even just 1 really good one, a new job that i use my brain in and a lifestyle of creativeness and new experiences. southampton can make you feel like you're in a rut. i think half of it is that i'm not being challenged, my brain works well most of the time but it's just sitting around drinking tea waiting to be called upon.
where do i start..i have no idea how to get all of these things or even who to ask how to get these things. it's at times like this that i feel the need to pray, of course there's no need as i would just be talking to myself. having said that i could aim my prayer to the universe not a god, that might work. the weather isn't helping i think even if there was a building up the road that could answer all these questions and more i couldn't bring myself to go for fear of freezing to death.

main problem is i'm tired and hungry! thanks for listening to my rant world wide web, i'm going to go now, have a ciggy and wait for boyfriend to get home with sushi.
might have the answers next time i blog.

ttfn

cakes threads and crafts!

its febuary already!
january has been a fairly productive one, getting myself sorted. now its time for business

to do:

swimming,

craft course,

festival planning

get a new job,

bleach hair,

sort out wardrobe once and for all.

in the meantime...

so clever and beautiful, maybe a cake decorator would be a possible job if only i have the patience and skill...thats what course are for i supose

 yes those are butterfly bscuits

i would happily live in any of these homes..




and finally, cake couture

xxx


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